Citizens of the Cyber Cosmos! Hibernation was wonderful. Apparently Lil’yoga junkie turns into some sort of furry woodland creature during the winter. She burrows under her blankets, watches way too many episodes of the real housewives, and stops writing witty passionate adventure stories about a chubby girl getting her happy on in Jersey.
PUMP THE BREAKS!
There are so many things wrong with this…first and fore most…why am I talking about myself in the third person? I’m not Mugatu. Obviously.
Secondly, have you ever had a vision of who you wanted to be that was so intensely exciting, a job that you loved far more than anything else in this world. Then ended up watching the real housewives instead? Those women look like science fair projects. It’s creepy, yet beautifully memorizing. I completely agreed with these ladies Ziggy should be allowed to vote for office. This shit is important.
Then I cracked. I became Sasha from The Walking Dead and screamed “THIS IS WHAT YOU PEOPLE CARE ABOUT”?! (Crazy eyes and everything). Then I bravely turned off the TV. I guess taking on characteristics of PTSD casserole break-down Sasha is better than becoming SCarol any day. Yes, I’m comparing my suburbia boredom to surviving the zombie apocalypse. It’s in tents people. Get it, in TENTS.
The point is that I lost my path. A giant flaming bus crashed on the road in front of me and I pulled out the marshmallows to settle in.
Then I said to myself. Where is my fucking horse? The point is, we all lose our way. We get distracted. We get lazy. We don’t follow through when we should. The winter is thawing out and so am I. I learned something very important about myself. When something gets hard. I retreat. It’s my sanity defense mechanism. When I feel like I could potentially fail. I bail.
Essentially my escape plan is everything I fight so intensely in my writing. Does that make me a liar or a fake?
No, it makes me human.
What is most important is that we find the horse. We find that horse and work one more second towards making tomorrow awesome. I’m ponying up. Scheduling the adventure, finding new places to share with you. It’s going to be a great summer. Stay tuned.
Btw, I missed you.
Love,
LYJ
PS, if I’ve learned anything from TWD, don’t leave your horse with zombies. By zombies I mean people, emotions, events that take you away from your mission to be completely fucking awesome. Zombies suck.
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